Hungry

By Jenny Harris

I fast once a month as a religious exercise. I skip two meals, pray with purpose, and donate money to the needy. In theory, it’s a great practice. But I’ll be honest: I love food. Aaand sometimes I’d rather not fast. But when I commune with God, I remember that fasting is not hungering from something so much as it is hungering for something. The conversation goes something like this:

Me: I’m hungry.

God: Yes, I know.

Me: You’re sure I need to skip meals to commune with you? I’m a lot nicer when my blood sugar is moderated. (Aaaaaand there’s a chocolate bundt on the counter).

God: But you said you’re hungry.

Me: I am (sigh) . . . not just physically. I’m really struggling.

God: Tell me.

Me: It’s hard. I don’t really know what to fast for, but my soul is languishing. I can’t tell what’s wrong.

God: Maybe start with what you desire?

Me: I desire … friendship. To be a peace in my marriage. Purpose. Affirmation. Something to strive for.

God. That’s a good list. I want those things for you too….Tell me, what are you thankful for?

Me: My girls! Of course. And safety. Plenty of food, gentle temperatures, books, rain, physical health, a kind community.

God: You’re welcome.

Me: Thanks. It feels good to worship You.

God: I love you, too.

God: Tell me, how are your brothers and sisters?

Me: I’m going to write to Lori and see if jail visits are allowed yet. And Jennifer made me a cross-stitch! I want to visit her. I wonder if Jess could use a phone call this week?

God: You’re a good sister. Thanks for watching out for your siblings.

Me: It’s my pleasure.

Me: God?

God: Yes?

Me: Thanks for the visit. This was good. I guess I can wait on the chocolate bundt for now.

God: It’s a kind offering. I love you. Let’s talk again soon.

Jenny Harris

Jenny Harris

Jenny is a star-gazing, book-clubbing mother of two. She has a Master’s degree in Human Development and Family Studies, which is mildly comical (but also a boon in parenting and relationships). Her kids will attest that she's crazy about reading aloud, time out of doors, and creative play. Her family's goal is the “abundant life,” as prescribed by Jesus. You can read more posts by Jenny here.
Jenny Harris

Jenny Harris

Jenny is a star-gazing, book-clubbing mother of two. She has a Master’s degree in Human Development and Family Studies, which is mildly comical (but also a boon in parenting and relationships). Her kids will attest that she's crazy about reading aloud, time out of doors, and creative play. Her family's goal is the “abundant life,” as prescribed by Jesus. You can read more posts by Jenny here.

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